algebra of blood

doors open and close
without my control
the moon does a halo
'round my house
am i so different
a white seed
something other
than the black sheep
the matter holds all the weight
but knowledge saved
for another day
silent circles click
and she will always
be sick
i cannot see beyond this
still taunted with dreaming
amethyst the elephant seeming
how many lives
can be handed over
for a dark soul's slumber
am i my mother's equation
or just a denominator to
a factor