tracing....hold on

how much of the past is it safe to hold onto?
remembering the wishes of a staying
the worldliness of weighing
and the wind swayed
he did come my way
i needed to know
all that could have been
surely there would have been joy
but i listened
when i knew he wasn't
i paid attention
and here i am
2 years later
after where we could have been
am i having fun?
i don't regret my decision
i would make it again
and laugh at the slap
and missed channels
the prank of my heart
cuz 8000 miles is too far

because you let me down
and i say it is all because of you
you were born to come and go
and i always knew 8,344 was
not safe with you

but how i wanted to marry the myth and let go
and here i am again
knowing better
could i just drive
away
would i feel more alive?
cuz i know i would look back
and say why didn't i just fly
or drive
my silent dive
instead of holding on
to material pieces of life