I wake up

"We crucify ourselves everyday"

repeating

in my head.

The ocean at my window

ebb & flow

the morning light spills across my

disheveled bed

"My heart is in chains"


Only if I had all the time to enjoy...

water makes me hear

what is not there.

Keep myself off the cross today.

Our pain is self-chosen
(don't drown in the river of deceit)

Walk

"Find myself singing the same songs everyday
Ones that make me feel good
When things behind the smiles ain't okay

Around and over and in-between the seas
I need to be on top of a mountain
Where I can be see everything
Cause this paranoia's getting old

Now as I open my eyes to start another day
I'm in a pile of puke
Empty bag of excuses
My love for friends and family
you know I need them

And under a sun that's seen it all before
My feet are so cold
And I can't believe that I have to bang my head against this wall again
But the blows they have just a little more space in-between them
Gonna take a breath and try again."

-Blind Melon

dirty break beat

mints and cuts
walks and short talks

debris in the street

hiding underneath

and yellow hair says
i'm too nice

to people who
don't give a fuck

about me



cold & contrary
i know not to believe
the sting in jealousy

is there ever solid ground
or shall i just dance

dance

and try not to fall down


i'm not in the spot
bloody from the walk

smile still surfaces

chasing childlike curses

too bad
all the glory
comes
after i've already

gone