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my heart swells
with sadness
with joy
shared space
my eyes
wet at the edges
from tori in my ear
from reading the names
of far away places
where my feet once were
emotions cooling change
settling into a new same
past, heated up to evaporate
my heart shares the dichotomy of fairs
a sadness blankets my being
soul silently screaming
and my skin arches into a new me
always been an october girl
sometimes late july
but i cannot keep the past near
enough
to comfort the sheets of miss
to smooth the rough edges of transition
to steal a kiss from an aging book
and to hug the sun of my young
whole in my entity to go
daylight's fuse shortens
and my longevity grows
tomorrows beyond my know
stretched like a sky
in the present
my clouds make and break forms
for admirers eyes,
for birds to fly
keep the expanse open
like a lotus
blanketed in burgeoning beauty
and still sad lips
dry
for a keeper of the heart knows
both sides of sun
both side of the moon
fire and water
earth and air
dualities of living
and the role of stricken
and carrying on
swallowing down
fragments of existence
and i
knowing better
hoping for manifestations
tipping the scales
of tomorrows
that all the todays
are never a waste
that the folly thought waves
find me in a glorious grace
of destinies i've once envisioned
from the watchtower of thought
into
the plains of the future
a twisted pandora
that i just might get to the summit
that makes my heart beat