mother

Out of the nest
It's time
Go go go now
Circus girl without a safety net
Here here now
Don't cry
You raised your hand for the assignment
Tuck those ribbons under your helmet
Be a good soldier
First my left foot
Then my right behind the other
Pantyhose
Running in the cold

Mother the car is here
Somebody leave the light on
Black Chariot for the redhead
Dancing dancing girl And when I dance for him
Somebody leave the light on just in case
I like the dancing
I can remember where I come from

I walked into your dream
And now I've forgotten how to dream my own dream
You are the clever one aren't you
Brides in veils for you
We told you all of our secrets
All but one
So don't you even try
The phone has been disconnected
Dripping with blood
And with time
And with your advice
Poison me against the moon

Mother the car is here
Somebody leave the light on
Black Chariot for the redhead
Dancing dancing girl And when I dance for him
Somebody leave the light on just in case
I like the dancing
I can remember where I come from

I escape into your escape
Into our very favorite fearscape
It's across the the sky
And across my heart
And I cross my legs
Oh my God
First my left foot
Then my right behind the other
Breadcrumbs lost under the snow
Mother
Mother the car is here
Somebody leave the light on
Somebody leave the light on just in case
I like the dancing
Mother

-Tori Amos

long gone day

So much blood I'm starting to drown
Runs from cold to colder
Time to time the sky's come down
To help me lose my way
Tears and lies for answers
You and open veins, God knows I'm gone
Girl I just want you to
Come on down
Lord it's a storm and I'm heading to fall
These sins are mine and I've done wrong, oh babe
Come on down

Long Gone Day
Mmmm, who ever said
We wash away with the rain

See you all from time to time
Isn't it so strange
How far away we all are now
Am I the only one who remembers that summer
Oh, I remember
Everyday each time the place was saved
The music that we made
The wind has carried all of that away

Long gone day
Mmmm, who ever said
We wash away with the rain

So many tears I'm starting to drown
The rain in heaven's all come down
Silver spoons affix the crown
The luckless ones are broken
Fears and lies for answers
You and open flames
God knows I'm gone
And I just want you to
Come on down, hmmm

Lord it's a storm and I'm heading to fall
These sins are mine and I've done wrong
I want you to, oh, I just want you to
Come on down

I fear again, like then, I've lost my way
And shout to God to bring my sunny day

-Mad Season

contagious

sometimes you feel the drain
and you can even see
the black clouds roll in
but you are not to blame
for you
when a heart can't be named
and a storm takes all the fame
no no you can't take it with you
desperate falling for a place
to return
you are not to blame
for the sea of revelry
can you bury the mistakes
in desert form
daring to believe in water
just because she is gone
doesn't mean it never mattered
or won't again
because you say it
doesn't mean dry mouths
are for dirty words
it means goodbye
because you say everything
but responsibility
it means this is not for you
and just because
you pull the chain
doesn't mean you can have
everything
without ever acknowledging
a god damned
thing
other
than
you

august winter

scattered like the
myrtle shedding of
August

I slowly (re)learn
the ides of attachment
and its governing
over a weak heart

even shallow script
points to it

and so I wrestle
with expecting

when there will be
no call
no call
at all.

too far in to pretend

size and bite show it
long sleeves
keep warmth
close to me
so I don't get
too cold
being alone.