Independence Day
maybe I should take a hint
let my hearts strings
turn to faint embers
falling from the explosions
in the sky
the air will be cloudy tonight
what damage we will do
for momentous satisfaction
my hands still shake
i've yet to taste
my saving grace
at what expense
is loving worth
falling fools
or
fools falling
time
the cruelest yet
fairest thing of all
does it even know
what is in store?
all rotten apples
show their bruises
eventually
hard core to soft
seeds that no longer produce
i've blocked the Sun
cleaned the sheets
trying to forget
underneath
how can someone
with the skin of Sun
and soul of Fortune
be
in
such
jeopardy
maybe all those books were right
maybe i shouldn't
believe words
before i am able to live them
"I see men come and go
But there'll be one who will
collect my soul and come to me
But I've heard there's joy untold
Lays on that open road in front of me
My first name is Stephanie"
I am free
I am free
why get stuck like honey
& lay claim at 23
no one ever said
decisions were easy
no one ever said
this is how it should be
i like my mess
my internal unrest
"In a heart full of dust
Lives a creature called lust
It surprises and scares
Like me
When she does it she means to
Moth delivers her message
Unexplained on your collar
Crawling in silence
A simple excuse"
prism perfect
is just a dream
quick where is my soliloquy?
i have eaten
everything sweet in sight
i cannot believe
that we are
not right
what is loving worth?
--he thinks he knows what he wants
he hears but doesn't want to listen
the blind have been blessed with security
i don't know what i am i don't know where i've been
human junk just words and so much skin--
silently she
must realize
that she cannot
fix this broken machine
just bring the
oil can and hope
it runs smoothly
this
fucking
terrible
lie
the
elastic
in
living
life
i will come up for air
can i trust in fate & fair?
trippin'
trippin'
on a hole
in a paper heart
how can something
so close
seem so far
I feel as if
today is Sunday
yet
it is Tuesday
I have tasted the
most delicious
fruit
and
let the juice
run down my chin
i have said the words
i have let him in
silently she
doesn't fight with
guns
she uses the power
of the Sun
but
afraid of the light
in the dark
i'd like to believe
salvation isn't far
i'd like to believe
i have touched
everything i ever wanted
everything i ever needed
ha
that is the illusion
watered from my thighs
that's a girl
wanting to believe
the beauty in everything
the dominant paradigm
has no source
ha
how the mind loves
to fuck with the heart
ha
how i cannot just
i cannot just
how i know
how easily
i slip
like velcro
on & off
on & off
with just a small tug
and eventually
i don't stick anymore
the sky will be exploding
tonight
in colored sparkling light
and i will feel him
and smell him
from across town
see his frown
feel his frown
as he reads this
he must know
"not to take it so literal"
silently she closes the window
so the draft quits coming in
and snuggles up
to warm thoughts
thinking of his love
and when she will
see him again
